I’m [Not] a Runner

There. I said it.

Actually, I said it the What I’m Not part of my Old School Blogging post on Monday, but, in case you weren’t paying attention, I said it for you again.

The End.

Not a runner-Rosey Rebecca{Picture is from 2010 when I was trying to run}

Just Kidding.

I’m not a runner despite my many attempts to become one in the past.

When I started blogging in 2009 I became an automatic member of a community of like-minded, health-conscious people. People, like me, who enjoyed talking about nutrition, daily workouts, and everything in between.

Since I’ve been part of a healthy living community for so long, I’ve seen many trends come and go: Oats in a Jar (OIAJ), Jillian Michaels DVDs, Green Smoothies.

One thing I’ve noticed as a constant, however, is that A LOT of my online buddies are runners.

When I was younger, my mom always threw the famous “if all of your friends all jumped off a bridge, would you do it, too?” line at me whenever I was about to do something that everyone else was doing but probably wasn’t such a great idea for me.

Jumped off a bridge, rosey rebecca

Well, when I first started blogging, jumping off a bridge with a bunch of runner friends sounded pretty awesome. The motivation and inspiration to run came from every angle: I saw tweets about early-morning runs, I read about bloggers training for races and carboloading (any run that involves consuming massive amounts of pasta and bread beforehand is OK in my book).

Everyone was doing it.

Except me, and I wanted to change that ASAP.

I jumped right on the running bandwagon, and I tried, and tried, and TRIED to love it. I even worked part time at a running store, where all my coworkers talked about what races they were signed up for, how to reach their PRs, and how sore they were from their last run.

I felt like an imposter.

At the time, I was just starting to run, and on the dreadmill* to boot! I found it impossible to run outside because it felt (and was) SO MUCH HARDER than running on the treadmill.

Still, I forged ahead, determined to earn the ‘runner’ title. I even acquired my very own shin splints and running injuries.

Ankle Injury, Running, Rosey Rebecca

I was fitted for shoes, bough a SPIbelt (did you know those things can hold a WHOLE can of soda? Something I learned at the running store) and was still trying to run up until April of this year. Jeff was even running with me! And then I hurt my ankle again.

Sometime between hurting my ankle and making a full recovery, I bought my bike and my mentality changed completely.

Bike, rosey rebecca

I no longer felt like an imposter; I felt part of a whole new gang: the cycling community.

I imagine that the way I feel when I’m on my bike is the way runners feel when they’re out on a run. It’s a high I can’t explain and one that I’ve never felt while running.

Everything about cycling feels like home to me. I know it sounds weird, but if you’re a cyclist (or runner!) I know you understand.

I worship every issue of Bicycling magazine because, unlike when I tried to read Runner’s World, I can finally relate to the stories inside.

I can actually envision myself participating in a bike race, something I could never do with running.

I have the same type of passion for hot yoga. I get the same high after class that I do when I’m done with a long ride.

yoga 2

Now, I’m not trying to bash running as a sport. I am still inspired by runners every day. It just wasn’t for me.

The moral of the story here is you shouldn’t have to force yourself to love something—it should come naturally.

Finally, after years of trying, I’ve found my passion.

I’ve often wondered if I’m not a real person a healthy living blogger because I don’t run.  Now I know how silly that is.

Now when I see my runner friends talking about long runs and races on Twitter, I can relate even though I’m not a runner.

I can relate to the raw love you feel for a sport you can call your own.

Who knows? One day I may start running again. Running a marathon has always been a goal at the very back of my mind. Right now, however, I’m happy with where I am and what I’m not.

*Deadmill is another runner term that I’ve never been able to relate to because I actually LIKE the treadmill.

LET’S CHAT:

Are you a runner? Did you struggle to become one? Do you love another sport? Have you ever struggled to fit in with a community?

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16 comments

  1. You said it! I felt the same way (well, less intense since I didn’t read all about running and I don’t do tweets). I had runner friends who made me insanely jealous. I suck at running. I wanted that “When I’m Running Nothing else Matters” feeling.. and I would get it… until 2 min in my legs would cramp and I’d be done. My calves have poor circulation, so yeah, no… running is not fun to me. However bicycling, I LOVE. (I don’t do it nearly enough). The switch felt as comfortable as when everyone was knitting and I tried it and sucked so I went back to my crochet and felt more at home. 🙂

    1. I know exactly what you mean when you say you wanted the “when I’m running nothing else matters” feeling. Even when I was running I had no idea what a runner’s high felt like!

  2. Love this! Having been in the HLB community for a few years now too, I’ve seen all the trends. Currently crossfit. 😛 And in the beginning I was like you. I wanted to be a runner. The difference with me is that I DO love running. I just love running for what it does, how I feel when I do it, etc. After many injuries, I no longer care about PRs, running races, being faster, etc. Just run when I feel like it because I want to!

    1. Lisa,

      Ah, yes. How could I forget about crossfit!? I must admit, I kind of want to try it. I like weight-training.

      That’s great that you can run now and not worry about beating yourself and just enjoy it!

      1. I did crossfit a few years ago before it hit big. I liked it. It was a killer workout. Be prepared for high reps. The potential for injury is high, too.

        1. Oh, I hear ya on the injury part! When I was going to physical therapy for my ankle, I overheard one of the therapists joke that he liked to drive with his daughter past Crossfit Studios and say, “look, honey, that’s how I put dinner on the table!” I know if varies for each person though so I didn’t take it too seriously!

  3. Loved this post, friend! Sometimes it’s hard fight against those trends, right? I agree with Lisa – right now it’s crossfit. I come to terms with the fact that I will never love that. 😉

  4. I admire your honesty. I did not actually understand any of the running craziness until I signed up for my first race in July. Now I can’t get enough of it. Thanks for the reminder that it doesn’t really matter what the “thing” is as long as you enjoy it!

  5. Do what you love, love what you do. That’s my motto. Don’t try to be someone you’re not and if you’re not a runner, that’s ok. You’re staying active and that’s what matters the most. I’ve been a runner for a loooong time but you know what? I REALLY like my bike too. And, when I’m not running or I don’t feel like bundling up to run in -27 degrees, I don’t and I get on my bike trainer instead. 🙂

  6. Omigosh running is hard. No, really, it’s hard. Although, at one point it was probably the only thing standing between me and a full on anxiety attack. So I kept at it.

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