I forgot my face today.
And by face, I mean my glasses, but, for some reason, as I sat down to write this post all I wanted to say was I forgot my face.
The urge to say it swept over me and I decided to just let it be.
One thing I’ve been working on lately in yoga and therapy (see number 34) is having a feeling and just letting it be.
Happiness. Sadness. Impatience. Anger. Anxiety. Guilt. Stress.
Doesn’t matter what feeling. Just accepting it. Not needing a reason or excuse. Because a natural response to something is nothing to feel bad about.
Take this week, for instance. I am insanely busy every night of the week and that stresses me out. At first, I felt guilty for feeling stressed. I mean, every after-work activity on my schedule is something I chose and want to do: holiday parties, dinner with a friend, yoga, pilates. So why should I feel stressed about it!?
Doesn’t matter. I just do and I’m accepting that feeling. There is absolutely no reason to add guilt or beat myself up over it.
As I write this, I’m sipping a grande two-pump caramel soy latte with a sprinkle of cinnamon on top.
You know when you’re going through something crazy in your life and you pick one or two constants to cling to to help you feel calm? This particular latte was my constant when my father was in the hospital. The status of his health was inconsistent and uncertain but the one thing I could rely on from one day to the next was that this latte would taste the same every time I ordered it.
I think of my father with every sip and for a while I avoided ordering it. I eventually decided, however, that avoidance is not the way to deal with things. Yes, I think of my father every time I order this drink, but I’m finally OK with that.
I’m just letting it be.
Accepting my reactions and not fighting/avoiding them is something I’m constantly working on. It’s definitely easier said than done, but mastering it is one of my biggest goals for 2014.
So, tell me, what do you do to accept and not fight your natural reactions to everyday life?