March Confessions (2018)

Well HELLO THERE!The Beehive Coffee Bar, Asheville, NC, www.roseyrebecca.com

As I type this, I’m sitting in the sweetest little new-to-me coffee shop, The Beehive Coffee Bar. I can’t believe I’ve never been here. It’s the coziest spot! I just inhaled a delicious vegan blueberry scone and am sipping a hot cup of coffee on this blustery March day. Life is good.

It’s been about a month since I did my last confessions post, so let’s get to it, shall we?

Confession #1

Most of the time, my bedroom floor is covered in a sea of clothing.

No matter what I do or how hard I try, it seems I can never keep my clothing from exploding all over the dang floor. Ladies, tell me, do you have this issue? I mean, there’s really no excuse for it. We’re currently using an entire other bedroom as our walk-in closet (which, if I’m honest, also has clothing all over the floor). I mean, I can’t be the only who piles their clean laundry up on the bed instead of putting it away, and, then, when it’s time for bed, transfers it to the floor, then back to the bed, then back to the floor. RIGHT? Right. VALIDATE ME.

Confession #2

I hate (most) games.

Board games, party games, card games, you name it, I hate most of em. Go ahead, let me have it. Kick me out (of my own blog). I’m no fun. I have no patience for them. No patience to learn the rules, wait for my turn, not win. Maybe that’s really what it is. Maybe I’m just a sore loser. I’m super competitive. Always have been. Always will be. I like to win. Not as much as Donald Trump likes to win (shudder) but I like to win. There is one exception to this confession, however: I LOVE Cards Against Humanity. I will play that with you all day every day.

Confession #3

I’m stuck in a food rut.

Baked Cheesy Veggie Pasta, www.roseyrebecca.com

WHAT? How could this be, Rebecca? You post different foods on your IG daily. OK, so I’m not talking an Asheville restaurants food rut, I’m talking a cooking food rut. I think I’ve made the same pasta dish every week for the past two months. And when I’m not making that pasta dish, I’m making veggie hot dogs and boxed mac & cheese (see my February Confessions). I usually rely on Pinterest for new recipe inspiration, so if you’re on there, feel free to send me ALL THE VEGETARIAN RECIPES. Seriously, please send me recipes or I’m going to be eating pasta and veggie hot dogs for the rest of my life.

Confession #4

I don’t believe in leggings as pants.  There, I said it.

leggings as pants meme, someecards.com

I know this is an SUPER unpopular opinion and let me stop right here and tell you I don’t care if YOU wear leggings pants. You do you. Wear no pants. I don’t care. Just don’t make ME wear leggings as pants. Let me stop again and clarify that when I say leggings, I don’t mean workout pants. I wear those all over the place. I mean the colorful, patterned stretchy tight things. That said, I am on the lookout for super comfortable sweatpants that I can wear out to events and kind of look like I made an effort to look nice. Do those exist? Where do I find them? HALP.

Confession #5

I simultaneously love writing this blog and hate writing this blog.

Blooms On Tap- Asheville,NC, www.roseyrebecca.com

I think that this confession ties in with my next one. Writing here has been a struggle for me lately, but I love it so, so, so much when I do. I’ve talked to so many of you who have encouraged me to keep writing and I appreciate it so much. I recently decided that I need to change my mentality from “I NEED to blog today” to “I WANT to blog today.” When I frame it like that, I don’t feel as much anxiety and pressure around it. I tend to beat myself up when I’m not exactly where I want to be with my writing and posting. I’m working really hard to stop.

Confession #6

I struggle with depression.

Blooms On Tap- Asheville,NC, www.roseyrebecca.com

I left this one for last because it’s a doozy. (Does anyone say doozy anymore?) So I know I’ve talked about my anxiety here before but I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned that I struggle with depression too, and the truth is, most of the time, they go hand in hand. Even so, I hesitated to confess this because for some reason, in my mind, admitting that I suffer from anxiety is not as embarrassing/shameful as admitting that I also suffer from depression. Trust me, I know there is nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed about, but I also know that depression lies, and my depression tells me that admitting that I have it will make people pity me and look at me differently. Especially those closest to me. But it’s just not true.

I know that some people will not agree with my posting about this because it’s very personal but I think that mental health is an extremely important topic that and, frankly, it doesn’t get talked about enough. If admitting that I’m depressed helps even one person feel like they’re not alone, I think it’s worth it to write about. I know from experience that anxiety and depression can be very isolating. It can make you feel like an outcast and like something is wrong with you, when, in fact, tons of people suffer from mental illness.

I typed the words “life is good” at the beginning of this post, and, that’s the thing, life IS good. There’s this common misconception that depression means lying in bed all day sobbing or being sad about any one thing. The truth is, you can be depressed and still function. You can be depressed and still have good, happy days. Depression can hit anyone, at any time, for any reason, or for no reason at all. It’s nothing to feel ashamed of or bad about, and I plan to talk about it a lot more because it’s important that you know that I’m a real person with real emotions and that it’s OK for you to be a real person with real emotions too. The end.

My struggle with depression, www.roseyrebecca.com

OK, with all that off my chest, you tell me, what are your March confessions!?

Have a beautiful day <3

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11 comments

  1. haha, my floor would definitely be covered in a sea of clothing if not for Mt. Doom on my chair (aka the pile of clothes on my chair). My cat would cover all my clothes in fur if I left it on the floor, ahah.

    I feel like it’d be hard to get into a restaurant food rut in Asheville–there are so many good eats!

    I like the way you changed your mindset of “I want to blog today” vs. need–that definitely tends to help me when I feel like I’m falling behind on blogging! I just always remind myself that real life always takes precedence over my virtual life!
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    1. Thanks for your comment, Farrah! I used to have a desk that I piled all my clothing on but our new bedroom is much smaller and there’s just no room for that. To the floor it goes!

      Yes, there’s definitely no shortage of Asheville restaurants. I have no problem with those. Cooking meals at home, however, eh.

      I find that when I’m anxious about something, a slight change in the way I think about it really helps. I agree that real life is much more important. I just need to work on feeling like I’m not letting everyone down when I don’t post as much as I used to.

  2. #1- I always seem to have this spot in my bedroom or closet where I pile clothes that I don’t feel like putting away! I try so hard to not have that pile but somehow it’s always there!

    #3- There are some weeks where I get really excited about certain dishes and other weeks I have no motivation at all. I find if I plan out my week by searching Pinterest, blogs, and magazines I’m more motivated…but I hate planning that far out.. ugh lol

    #4- I LOVE leggings.. of all kinds lol I can’t stand jeans. I just can’t seem to be comfortable in them.

    #6- thank you for sharing your real life experiences. I’m so glad you’re talking about it and hopefully helping others express themselves more openly because like you said, it’s not talked about enough.

    As always, great post!

    1. Jenn, I know how you feel about meal planning. Sometimes I get really excited when I’m planning and grocery shopping and then when it comes time to make the dish I’m like noooooo, let’s just get takeout. haha

      I’m starting to hate jeans too. Stretchy pants all the way.

      Thanks for commenting!

  3. Thx for sharing your heart/struggles. The more convo we have about mental health the better, the less negative stigma attached. Cause if we’re honest, many of us are dealing with something.
    Thx for using your pretty Blooms too. I think flowers/nature/pets are some of the best meds out there.

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