Yesterday

Yesterday had the potential to really suck.

Yesterday would have been an anniversary– a six year anniversary, to be exact.

Yesterday could have been miserable for me, but it wasn’t, simply because I have the best friends and family in the world.

A few weeks ago, I decided that I definitely did not want to spend the day alone. Instead, I did the exact opposite—I threw a party!

The invitation was simple: Girls only. Bring wine.

Wine

I knew I could count on my friends and family to be there for me.

Dara and me   Dara and me

Group ShotFrom left: Erica, Mareesa, Me, Jess

Dana and me Dana and me

Mareesa’s birthday was on Thursday, so the party doubled as a birthday party for her. Dara brought a birthday sash for her, and a bunch of fabulous crowns for us to wear.

Group shot From left: Mareesa,Me, Alicia, Emily

She also brought a bunch of party decorations. My favorite was this door decorating kit:

Door decorating kit

I couldn’t decide what to write, so I just copied the message from the package:

Door decorating kit

I think it might stay on my door forever.   

Party snacks included Stacy’s pita chips and garlic hummus, and mini pretzels with cranberry honey mustard for dipping.

Party Snacks

I also put together a fancy-schmancy cheese and grape platter: 

Cheese and Grape platter

We ordered pizzas, too, but I’ll spare you the blurry pictures.

Lots of fun was had:

Mareesa, Emily, and Alicia 

Tons of candid pictures were taken:

Candid Candid

[I might get killed for posting these]

And some not so candid ones were also taken:

Group shot   Dara and me

Yesterday very easily could have been a depressing, and emotionally draining day for me, but I refused to let it be. I could have  dreaded yesterday for weeks, but I planned a fun event, and was excited about it instead. I could have sat around thinking about what should have been, but I chose to create new, happy memories to associate with the 16th. I conquered the day, and am ridiculously proud of myself for doing so.

I feel so incredibly lucky to have such an amazing support system. I don’t know what I’d do without my friends and family. They are constantly there, constantly caring, and constantly inspiring and motivating me to push through. They remind me to take one day at a time, and I am so thankful to have them in my life. I find it so difficult to be sad around them. They’ve helped make me excited and hopeful for these changes and the months ahead.

I know I’m going to be fine, and if I ever find myself questioning that, I can just look at my fridge:

Encouragement

Have a great Saturday! <3

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Change is Good

Today marks exactly two weeks since this happened.

In the two plus years I’ve been writing this blog, I’ve always been very open about my life and feelings. I don’t plan to treat this experience any differently.

We all experience break ups. I’ve survived a handful of them. Unfortunately, that fact doesn’t make this one any easier. 

I know what I’m in for. I know that it will be a while before I feel 100% again. I also know that things get a little bit better every day.

I have ups and downs. Up until three days ago, I had been crying at least once a day. I actually find it a bit comical that at any given moment, I’ll break into tears for five minutes, and then go back to what I was doing. I’m happy to say that I haven’t cried since Thursday.

I am trying to embrace each emotion I come across. I don’t try to prevent myself from crying. However, I have been wearing mascara when I go out to try to keep from crying in public. It hasn’t really worked. My mascara is waterproof anyway.

More often than not, my down moments come at times when I have someone who cares about me around. My mother’s shirt sleeves have more tear stains on them than I can count. My friends have been there for me through it all.

Dara, who I’ve known since preschool, seems to know exactly what to do and how to turn my mood around. When I broke down one night while making dinner, she insisted we throw every single reminder into a box. It was a genius idea.

My friends and family have helped me become excited and hopeful for this new chapter of my life. Dara, especially, has inspired and encouraged me to make changes I probably wouldn’t have been ready to make so soon on my own.

One change that could not have been made possible without her was the recent transformation of my bedroom walls from red to purple.

Dara Painting

When I moved into my apartment in my parents’ house, the bedroom walls were dark red. My brother, David, and his wife, Angela, lived in the apartment before they bought their house, and let’s just say we have different taste in paint colors. When I moved in in March, I assumed I’d be moving out not long after, however, and decided to leave the walls the way they were.

Flash forward six months, and it looks like I’ll be living here a bit longer. When I mentioned the idea of painting to Dara, she not only encouraged me to go for it, she also locked me into a date. Her text message read, “I can do September 10th.”

And that was it. September 10th was painting day. 

Me Painting

It only took me five hours to pick a color.

Behr Pixie Violet

I finally decided on Behr Pixie Violet. It seemed girly and perfect to me.

Everyone (everyone = my brothers) told me that I’d probably need three or four coats to cover the red. It only took two.

Dara Painting

I bought the kind of paint with the primer mixed in, so that definitely helped.

I like this color much better than the red.

Behr Pixie Violet

Much, much better.

I even bought a new comforter to match:

Comforter Comforter

I plan to get some art work in there. Probably some black and whites for dramatic effect. 

Dresser

I’m really happy with the result. Dara and I were so excited about the color that we kept yelling “PURPLE” to each other all day. 

Continuing with the theme of change, I also asked Dara to dye my hair on Friday night. It went from this:

Dara and Me

To this:

Different Hair Color I like it. What do you think?

Today I am meeting up with Cynthia for a lunch and shopping adventure! She happens to be in Rockland for work, and I’m VERY excited to see her. I miss all of my CDNY blends (blog friends). And with that, I’m off!

Have a great Monday! <3

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