As You Read This (Revisited)…

Note: This post is a continuation of this one and this one. If you’re fairly new to my blog, you may want to read those posts first. 🙂

I went to the breast surgeon today.

I walked into my appointment with my hands shaking and a lump in my throat.

I walked out with an appointment for surgery on October 15.

I looked my doctor right in the eye and said, “I want a biopsy.”

He looked right back and said, “That’s probably a good idea.”

When the doctor at my follow-up ultrasound on August 23 told me that the lump was most likely a fibroadenoma, I accepted it.

I accepted that I’d probably be going to follow-up ultrasounds twice a year for the rest of my life (or until the lump went away on its own).

Then, a blog reader named Erica changed my mind with just one comment:

Hey Rebecca, I am a new reader to your blog, I found it via Caitlin at HTP through her twitter link. I had to click on the link when I saw the words breast cancer. I am a 32 year old breast cancer survivor, diagnosed at age 30 with no family history or any other risk factors, except that I’m a woman. In reading your post, I was immediately taken back to my appointments almost 2 years ago and that feeling of fear and uncertainty that make it hard to breathe, let alone make it through a test. After mammograms and ultrasounds determined my lump was a fibroadenoma, I let it go for a year and a half, before I actually had the correct diagnosis of breast cancer…and a very aggressive type at that. When I finally got to my current doctor she told me something even scarier, that my mammograms and ultrasounds did indeed LOOK like a fibroadenoma, it was only through biopsy that they determined otherwise. Every doctor was shocked to say the least. I’m not saying this to scare you, although I’m sure you have a lump in your throat right now, but only to be aware, which you made very clear in your post and I LOVE IT! We all know our own bodies the best and we MUST be our own advocate! Everything you have explained and all the odds are in your favor, 80% of all breast lumps are totally benign, but I just wanted to tell you my experience because mine was clearly not. And I don’t think I could sleep if I didn’t at least tell you my experience! I’m so sorry if this has caused you worry or anxiety, because that was not my intention at all. I’m so proud of you for sharing your experience, because it is through posts like this that some other woman may have the courage to go get checked out and possibly save her life…go you!!               

[Thank you, Erica, for sharing your story with me]

The doctor gave me two choices. I could either get a needle biopsy to determine what the lump actually is, OR, I could have a biopsy, and the lump removed. I chose the latter for a couple reasons:

  1. I DON’T want to go to follow-up ultrasounds twice a year for the rest of my life.
  2. Fibroadenomas can grow, and having the lump there will make doing self-exams really difficult.
  3. Most importantly, what if it is cancer? What if my experience turns out to be like Erica’s, and I let it go for too long? I’d rather be safe, than sorry.

After the lump is gone, I won’t have to worry about it anymore.

Am I scared? Is it going to hurt? Will it leave a scar?

Yes.

Am I strong? Will I get through this?

Definitely.

Has anybody gone through anything like this? Hearing your stories will make this ten times easier to handle.

My friend, Jess, came to my appointment with me. It’s become a tradition for to go out to breakfast or lunch after appointments like this to take my mind off of things. Today was no different.

We decided to check out Scratch for lunch—a bakery/cafe in downtown Albany that I’ve been wanting to try for a while.

Scratch

Scratch

Scratch

The mission statement on Scratch’s website reads:

Our missions is to provide our customers with the purest artisan food items of sustenance, with service of the highest standards, that will ultimately nourish both the body and soul. Our product is created from Scratch, with the most basic ingredients, and with the technique and pride of artisans. We are the new concept for wholesome dining in the Capital Region.

Scratch Scratch

I ordered a cup of Paris iced tea. I love Harney & Sons.

Iced Tea

After staring at the menu for five minutes,  I finally decided on the Garden Veggie sandwich.

Veggie Sandwich

Hummus, lettuce, tomato, red onion, cucumber, carrot, avocado, and cheddar on wheat focaccia bread. (Scratch makes their own bread!!!)

Veggie Sandwich

The combination of flavors was incredible.  Everything tasted so fresh and delicious. After licking the plate clean, Jess and I decided that comfort food in the form of baked goods was necessary.

Baked Goods

Everything in the dessert case look phenomenal, but I finally chose the strawberry-chocolate bar:

strawberry chocolate bar

Jess chose a vegan cupcake:

cupcake

Oh. my. yum. That’s all I can say.

If you live or work in the area, definitely check Scratch out! As I’ve said with all of my restaurant recommendations, you won’t be disappointed.

I was originally supposed to work tonight, but just got a surprise phone call, and found out that I have the night off! Going to take it easy, and relax.

Have a great night! <3

Thank you in advance for your support.

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Why It’s OK To Not Blog Every Day

Locals: Don’t forget to enter to win a $25 gift certificate to Virgil’s Coffee House! You have until midnight on Friday to enter!

Happy September Blogfaces!!! Welcome to one of my favorite months of the year! We have a lot to discuss, so let’s get on that, shall we?

Basically, the past couple days have looked like this: 

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Now, there are a few things about the above situation that I want to talk about:

Yes, I am taking four reading/writing-intensive classes.

Yes, I also have a part-time job, and am a freelance writer for the local paper.

Yes, I will have A LOT of work to do.

Yes, I am going to keep blogging regardless. To ensure that I will keep posting throughout the semester, I have also registered to receive independent study credits for my blog. In the past, I’ve gotten swamped with school work, and haven’t been able to keep up with posting. Now, blogging is part of my school work.

NO, I will not apologize when I miss a day or two of posting. You guys don’t want to hear it, and I don’t want to make excuses. Since, as I said above, I will be receiving credit for my blog, I am obligated (and want to) continue posting on a regular basis. BUT, on some days, when I’m overwhelmed with school work, I simply won’t have the time to blog. That said, there will be no post intros that sound like this: ‘Sorry I haven’t posted in a few days, but blah,complain,blah,complain,blah…’  To be quite honest (which I hope you will appreciate), I’m not sorry! Sometimes life gets crazy, and I am a real person. I hope you know that my blog and blog readers are very important to me, and you understand and continue reading… 🙂

If anything, my blog will be an example of how to maintain a blog while living a totally hectic life. Thoughts?

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Before I update you on the craziness of the past two days, I’d like to introduce you to this sandwich:

Bread Basket

Quite Possibly the Best. Sandwich. Ever. Not kidding. I love getting lunch at bakeries.

Bread Basket 2

The beaut above is called the Spit & Spat Special and is made with hummus, roasted reds, sprouts, sliced avocado, and cucumbers on the bakery’s high fiber five-seed bread. Oh. My. Yum. Definitely the sandwich of my dreams. If you live anywhere near Saratoga, please, PLEASE check out The Bread Basket. You won’t be disappointed. Promise.

Updates:

  • You may have missed it on Twitter, but I CAN RUN AGAIN!! The doctor prescribed it. He said, “Rebecca, the only thing that you can to to solve all of the problems in your life is to RUN. Run like you’ve never run before.” OK- he didn’t say that. But, the point is, I can run again! If you’re new to the blog, you might not know that I have ankle tendonitis. I haven’t been able to run, or do much of anything since the beginning of July. (I also have bicep tendonitis. So, no body pump either.) On Monday, my doctor watched me run on the treadmill, and concluded that I have a weakness in my right hip, which is causing me to land weird on my right foot when I run. He gave me a bunch of exercises to do to strengthen it, and also gave me some tips for when I start running again (Yippee!!)
  • I have an appointment with the breast surgeon on September 8th. After reading a comment on my As You Read This post, I’ve decided to insist on getting a biopsy. I hear that it hurts and leaves a scar, but it’s something I have to do to finally clear my mind of this whole situation. I might even ask to have the fibroadenoma surgically removed, but that’s a decision for another time. Any advice you can give me would be greatly appreciated

Finally, here are the classes I’m taking this fall (my last semester!!!):

  • Media Ethics (love the professor!!!)
  • Investigative Reporting (Same professor as above!)
  • E-zine Workshop: Writing and Packaging Stories for the Web (This class is going to be amazing for my blog!)
  • Studies in Non-fiction Prose: Captivity Narratives
  • My blog!

Whew! Now that the blog housekeeping is done, please head over to Christie’s blog to read my guest post about how to stay positive while dealing with a running injury!

Also, Jeff and I will celebrate our five year anniversary this month! Get ready for a sappy love post on the 16th!

The. End.

Have a great Wednesday! <3

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