Update (July 2020): I went back and forth on whether to move this post over to my new blog. The reason I hesitated is that it talks a little bit about dieting and beating myself up for not eating the “right” foods, and I don’t agree with any of what I said about yo-yo dieting (weight cycling) in this post anymore. Note, also, that I claim in this post not to be a yo-yo dieter, and looking back, I can see that I was pretty delusional about my “healthy” living habits.
I decided to include this post on my new site, however, because another thing is quite apparent to me now in retrospect: this issue of “yo-yoing” that I discuss in this post is a textbook example of someone struggling with undiagnosed ADHD. I did a hell of a great job blaming myself for it because I just didn’t know what was wrong with me. I felt like a failure. I felt like things were out of my control. And they were. I just had to wait seven years to figure out why.
In my experience, reading about the ways in which people came to realize they had a mental illness or were suffering from an eating disorder helped me to feel less alone. My blog’s entire mission is to help people, and I think it would be disingenuous if I deleted very real parts of my journey.